Thank you so much love!

Thank you so much love! I really missed being back and I am so pumped to share gifs and more all the time.

I think so…

If you don’t mind I’d like to explain myself:

1. From this account I still handle @tisdaledaily, which is one of your Ashley Tisdale Tumblr news pages. 
2. Another reason I abandoned is, I literally wasn’t doing fine in a mental state. Some may know this, I’m suffering from a post traumatic stress disorder, depression and anxiety and the past weeks were terrible for me in my mental state. I literally locked myself up, I slept all day and tried to not fall too much into this deep dark shit whole. Sorry?
3. Don’t get me wrong, I love this account but it’s hard to stay creative at times. I had this lack of inspiration and creativity due to point #2. I didn’t feel like anybody even cared for this account at all, like people were like “Oh, okay rather not see those edits. Not caring, nope” you know?
4. My mom got married a few weeks back and I was organizing this whole thing, had to sit down with someone who is the reason I got PTSD and I’m struggeling.
5. I started working full time (8 hours a day), which means getting up at 6:30, working for 8 hours, coming home, doing my household (laundry, cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, adult bullshit). I got a wonderful boyfriend who also deserves attention so I basically also spend time with him.
6. Besides this blog I’m also running a fansite with a growing gallery which wanted to be updated (finally almost finished Ashley’s 2012 candids).
7. Sometimes I come home and I just wanna play Assassin’s Creed, House Flipper or any other game just to escape this bullshit life.
8. It was my sister’s birthday I attended and worked on, also had to stay up all day and night just to have about two hours with my family which was ruined as in #4. 
9. Once a week I got therapy which I have to attend to clear my mind from #2, #4 and #8; it’s every Monday for an hour, and I go there after working for 8 hours, then I get home and hop back into my household. I’m super exhausted and just giving a fuck about anything else besides my mental state in these moments. People who got therapy know what I’m talking about.
10. July 2017 my best friend commited suicide and I’m still struggeling with this, especially right now. On March 17 I’ll drive to her hometown for the first time since this fucked up shit happened and I’ll be at her grace for the first time which scares the shit out of me. 

Yup, basically that’s it. If you guys rather have this account closed, I understand. Sorry for not being the greatest edit blog ever. Leave an opinion in my inbox what you wish to have this blog to be like. I’d love to know.

Edit: thought so. See you sometime guys.

Thank you so much! Already shared a pack, going to make some more gifs soon.

I can do this, if you want me to. Also I’ll do some more of the Symptoms shoot.

For sure! Any specific videos you’d like to see gifs of?

Originally posted by bbcr1

Thank you dear. I do not mind corretion myself in the VIMH point. I’m sorry I missed V’s video. Still, I simply tried to point out that it’s not about when they don’t support each other, but about them supporting each other always - probably a lot offline (not on their social media sites) since they’re best friends not a publicity stunt or anything. It’s quiet sad people can’t support their idol (not only in these fandoms, but in like every single one) instead of using their fan account to bash some other idol. Sigh.

That’s the point I tried to show off. Vanessa and Ashley are still super busy business women who do have to work a lot. Sometimes they’re both in LA or NY or wherever, sometimes they’re out of town. If I remember correctly Vanessa celebrated her birthday in Miami this year (not the party Ashley attended, the actual day I mean) and it didn’t seem to be a big deal until Ashley shared the IG Stories photo as a birthday message. I suppose (!) both support each other offline a lot freaking more than we know - and should actually care about. It’s non of our business, but I bet Ashley called, facetimed or whatever Vanessa. I also don’t share super long ass posts of all my friends and family members online ‘cause it belongs to our personal moments - like when we meet up, to show them how much they mean to me. Not by making a post online. Surely a long post would be fun and stuff, but making memories offline is so much better.